Me and my lifestory

hey well my name is Tayah-maree im sixteen years old im out going and easy to get along with you will almost always see a smile on my face though most of the time its just a mask i do have a pretty good life i have a great mum better than anyone could ask for, my sister is amazing she is my idol in so many ways, but ill always have something i am hiding i am writing this here because none of you know the real me or my real life, for thirteen years of my life ive been beaten up for the first eight years of my life i was scared to come home my dad isnt a very nice man and well my sister and i knew that quite well so did mum if it wasnt for my sister today i wouldnt exist it is my sister who has helped make me as strong as i am.
i also unfortunately took alot of what happened when i was younger and took it on so i now have anger management issues come in and out of stages of depression all the time, i have been diagnosed with bipolar II and have ADHD though with all of these i refuse to take medication which to me is the right thing.
Most people see me today as that loud weird girl who seeks attention but none of these people realise what i hide inside i have also been through other things that i am not comfortable saying yet but time will tell,
I love my music it has kept me a live i write my own song and am trying to learn the piano and guitar when i have my music im in a place of safety nothing can harm me.
I am so thankful to my friends for if it wernt for them telling me what to hold on to and what to look for and just for them being there to hug and cry on i would have done something that tody i would regret.
i get along with my life i take each day as it comes lately my depression has gotten better the last time i drew blood was on 1.3.11 i am proud of that
last attempt of death was on 26.6.11 not so proud of that i spose ive written enough now if you wanna know more just tell me